I’m always telling myself
move on, life is waiting
Take all that I’ve learned
about the tedious playing
Reach my hand to the sky
and embrace a new star
But, there’s one out of reach
and it’s burning my heart
An entire year, bygone
and the sky only falls
Dreams changed to anxiety
while waiting for a call
Nothing can be expected
I’m suffering from a curse
I wasn’t strong enough to hold you
and this is what I deserve
I should have put up a shield
averting insults and eyes rolling
But my mouth filled with slander
knocked down pins as if bowling
I declared we are toxic
and never could mix
A lie bloomed from anguish
followed by a cheap fix
One favor a guilty prisoner begs
I promise, it’s all that I need
Just to hear it from your lips
“You served the sentence; you’re free!”
Tell me it’s alright
to forget the forever I swore
And to walk toward the sunset
far away from Portmore
I’ll hope the best for you
love and laughs every day
God blessing your home
perhaps a kid on the way
Inspiration thriving
as you build all your dreams
Never feeling depleted
Never split at the seams
Strong arms to hold you
sending warmth to your heart
Faith in future, secured
with no need for fresh starts
The only games on the table
be the ones we never played
Chess, Scrabble, and Uno
Games with heart and no spade
Once again, I apologize
and I beg on bended knee
Release this prisoner
by hurting you, he hurt me
~
Scott Mitchell
January 21st, 2013 at 3:34 pm
Beautiful piece! God Bless
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January 21st, 2013 at 3:57 pm
Thank you PJ, so much. Amen, and God bless you too sweetie
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January 21st, 2013 at 3:41 pm
You have such a heart, a heart that feels so deeply and full of love. I know you will find love again. A love so beautiful and real that you will not have pain in your heart of the past anymore!….and this I will pray for you daily, my friend!
Blessing to you always, Scott!
xxx
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January 21st, 2013 at 3:58 pm
Thank you Debbie. Your comment made me smile and feel hope in a moment almost impossible to do so. Blessings to you too (and your one and only, Mitch)
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January 21st, 2013 at 3:55 pm
I love this and have personally lived that pain just recently. Great post!!
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January 21st, 2013 at 3:59 pm
Thanks Blu and my heart and hugs go out to you now. May we use all we learn to achieve all we’ve dreamed
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January 21st, 2013 at 4:31 pm
Amazing!!!
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:28 am
Thank you Kimberly
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January 21st, 2013 at 4:53 pm
It takes a lot for someone to admit to something like this. Great job buddy. Keep it coming and keep on growing.
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:30 am
Thanks so much visionary. I’m honestly just trying to find peace in my soul and move onward.
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January 21st, 2013 at 5:01 pm
I love it!
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:30 am
Thanks Iris!
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January 21st, 2013 at 6:04 pm
*tears* awwwww Scott 😦 …this one really respnated with me. Hope you both find peace.
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:32 am
Thanks love. I think the most peace I’ve found so far with this is finally getting to the point of no more finger pointing and just accepting the responsibility for the part I played.
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January 21st, 2013 at 6:11 pm
Beautiful….
)0(
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:33 am
Thank you LadyBlueRose
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January 21st, 2013 at 6:58 pm
a very beautiful writing and dedication!!
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:33 am
Thanks Mimo! I’m honored by my favorite photographer visiting my blog! 🙂
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January 21st, 2013 at 7:15 pm
Such a sincere apology ..hope you’re forgiven! Takes a lot to acknowledge when you’re wrong and try to make amends. Oh that I could express myself as beautifully as you do!
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:36 am
I hope I’m forgiven too. Previously, I would have said “no it doesn’t take a lot to admit” but it really does. The ego or something was at work in a strong way and I responded to each negative thing with 10X negativity I think. While I thought I was seeking peace, I was making everything worse for myself even. Well, it’s a long story lol.
Thanks much for your visit and reading
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January 21st, 2013 at 10:41 pm
Thats what i like best about you, your sensitive, selfless heart! Great poem Scott…you really bring it!
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:38 am
Thanks brother Wendell. I wish I could say I’m selfless, but I think I’ve mostly been thinking of myself with all my “wanting and wishing.” Finding peace would be like a treasure right now.
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January 22nd, 2013 at 1:38 am
Although it is sad at the same time is beautiful, want to give freedom……
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:40 am
Thanks! Yes, all I want is another chance outside of this prison 🙂
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January 22nd, 2013 at 2:04 am
Wow, this was amazing and so touching. I’ve been the young lady you wrote about and its really refreshing to see that guys learn from experiencees like this and change for the better. Life is about change after all. Very nice. Thanks for sharing that! It really touched me!
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:44 am
Thanks Lady D! An ironic thing about the topic is that I also was at the receiving end of such an event before this. And then to be in something new immediately after with someone that needs someone extra special. Well, I should have tried harder to be extra special.
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January 22nd, 2013 at 2:49 am
I held my breath as I read this- probably to stop the tears forming in my eyes…
Absolutely beautiful Scott… I hope she hears you!
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:48 am
Aww Upe my friend. Thanks! I hope so too, but perhaps I will never know either way and I have to live with that. The part that feels good now though is only seeing the parts of which I am to blame. I was even a prisoner before with a closed and hardened heart as I lived with my own related pains.
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January 22nd, 2013 at 3:08 am
Full of punches that find its way into the soul, and sum how am re mimed of the poem about foot prints in the sand.Keep on writing and share with us. Poetry like this gives us hope a mist brokenness. .
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January 22nd, 2013 at 6:51 am
Thanks so much! Excellent that you would mention foot prints in the sand. Good reminder of who I’m supposed to be walking along with, rather than focusing on the human desires of the walk
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January 22nd, 2013 at 9:42 am
Beautiful. Following.
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January 22nd, 2013 at 12:25 pm
Thank you Carmen! I’m honored
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January 22nd, 2013 at 11:01 am
Wow, Scott, this is beyond beautiful and I think it’s wonderful that you can open up your heart and pour out your apology in such a touching manner. I hope she hears you, too, but I also hope that by writing this, you do find peace and are able to let go and move on. You have a strong, loving heart, Scott, and I know you will find the absolute one who is meant to hold it…Hugs and blessings to you, my friend.
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January 22nd, 2013 at 12:31 pm
Thank you dear Lauren. It’s me that has to be better with myself first I think. I actually had a blatant ignorance of how things are out in the world not so long ago actually, and I’ve learned the hard way to deal with it all better. I need to keep my standards for my own ways and anyone else I allow to be part of my life. If the world was full of amazing people like you, Debbie, etc. it would be perfect in my opinion. 🙂
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January 22nd, 2013 at 12:38 pm
Well, you do have to come to terms within your own self, so that makes sense, but something tells me you’re probably being really hard on yourself. But, that’s a middle age Mom talking! 🙂 And you are too sweet with your perfect words, Scott, thank you! I am not perfect, but it sure would be nice for a change! Hee,hee! Take care and smile; today’s a new day! 🙂
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January 22nd, 2013 at 12:12 pm
Wow!! This is beautiful!! I love it and I identify with these words most of all:
“Reach my hand to the sky
and embrace a new star
But, there’s one out of reach
and it’s burning my heart”
Strange how, sometimes, all it takes is someone else’s words to bring us back those we think we’ve let go of…
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January 22nd, 2013 at 12:34 pm
Thanks Mari. I imagine you can relate to that because I know you through your writing 🙂 (and I like it BTW)
Yes, it is strange and for any little thing that makes me “remember” every day, throughout the entire day.
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January 22nd, 2013 at 12:38 pm
Thank you, you are too kind. And I also know that feeling of “remembering” all time. I used to fight it but I realize now that if I just allow myself a day to do so, I am able to get it out of the way for some time. Until it sneaks back in again, anyway…
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January 23rd, 2013 at 1:18 am
simply beautiful…any more words to this would taint it.beautiful
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January 23rd, 2013 at 6:21 am
Thank you imperfectous! Much appreciated
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January 23rd, 2013 at 11:13 pm
wow…. Just wow! loved it.
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January 24th, 2013 at 10:52 am
Thanks again Val!
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January 24th, 2013 at 7:34 am
Beautifully articulated, Scott! Above all the honesty between each line touched me most — pain mixed with sublime sincerity.
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January 24th, 2013 at 10:54 am
Thank you so much silent fingers. I consider you a master of the art and hold your comments in high regard. Much appreciated!
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February 9th, 2013 at 7:38 pm
My my! I sit with my head bent low in front of the generous words you’ve offered here. Ah, but I am nothing — just a plain heart with silence on my fingertips.
Keep penning, dear Scott! Your poetic words seep very deep.
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January 25th, 2013 at 2:17 am
Wonderful, as always. Apologies and forgiveness expressed through poetry has a special sincerity that can’t be falsified. It’s genuine and honest. Just like your beautiful soul. 🙂
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January 25th, 2013 at 7:45 am
Thanks so much Jenna. It was possibly the most heart-felt thing I ever wrote, yet I have to accept that it may never be heard.
Walking forward now and hoping I never again have to write such a thing.
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January 26th, 2013 at 12:51 pm
Wow, this gives some serious goose bumps here! How courageous of you to open up so widely. When I read this it felt almost like someone from my past saying this to me – I guess many, many people out there will have a similar story to tell.
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January 26th, 2013 at 3:23 pm
Thanks Miss F! Sadly, me posting this was long overdue. I finally felt in my heart it’s time to grow up and forgive and accept responsibility for my part in all that happened and kick the ego thing. I’ve learned a lot…
May the love treat you kindly always my friend.
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January 26th, 2013 at 5:37 pm
This is beautiful, It is not easy to admit and wrote this kind of letter, very honest and sincere, I am praying for both of you to find piece and love and move on.
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February 8th, 2013 at 8:46 am
Thank you WOH. I appreciate your comment and prayers
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January 28th, 2013 at 8:50 am
That really tugged at my heart strings in a real way!
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February 8th, 2013 at 8:48 am
Aww, thanks for your comment! Well, I think she abides by the cliche advice of moving on and forgetting better than I do, but hopefully someday…
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January 28th, 2013 at 9:16 am
This is absolutely beautiful….wow!
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February 8th, 2013 at 8:49 am
Thanks Mary. I’m honored by that comment! 🙂
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January 28th, 2013 at 10:27 am
Your writing is breathtaking. Thank you so much for sharing a part of yourself with all of us.
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February 8th, 2013 at 8:51 am
Thanks to you Drops of Ink for reading and sharing in my life musings here. I appreciate your visit
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January 28th, 2013 at 1:03 pm
Wow factor! Thank you for stopping by
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February 8th, 2013 at 8:51 am
Thanks raphaelcha!
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February 2nd, 2013 at 1:45 pm
It’s difficult
to cling to 1 star
when they’re all
shining
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February 8th, 2013 at 8:52 am
Thanks Geo Sans! It’s true that many shine, but sometimes one captures a heart in ways that I still don’t fully understand.
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February 9th, 2013 at 7:54 pm
we may never uncover
the true mystery
the beauty
of the stars
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February 7th, 2013 at 11:15 pm
Scott, i think i can comfortably say that this is a favorite of mine.and maybe it is because i have heard that same plea somewhere…it is filled with so much beauty and grace…absolutely love it!
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February 8th, 2013 at 8:56 am
Thanks imperfectous. Did you forgive? 🙂
I truly did put my heart into this one. As I look back, I don’t even understand all that happened, but I definitely learned some things.
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March 4th, 2013 at 10:33 am
Wow.. I can sense the ache.
ps. You will never be free
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March 4th, 2013 at 10:36 am
Thanks, and yes, so I’ve discovered. Never to be free and I know she smiles knowing it 🙂
Well, even if my pain can make her happy, it makes me happy
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June 6th, 2013 at 12:44 pm
seems there’s always a what if?… or if only… but we have to settle for how it is.. Loved the flow of this one… x
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October 31st, 2013 at 12:12 pm
Thanks so much and I agree. Our human condition is always seeking the what if’s etc. Settling for logical reality is not my strong point sometimes 🙂
All is good now though!
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October 31st, 2013 at 11:31 am
Is this real? you sound so pained and emotional. great job! wow:)
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October 31st, 2013 at 12:07 pm
Thanks Lydie! Yes, it’s 100% real and coincidentally everything related has achieved full closure on the matter just this week! It was a long and crazy story (in my eyes) and everyone has smiles now 🙂
Continue blessed my friend
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July 20th, 2014 at 3:47 pm
So sad.
Oh, so you’ve been to Jamaica. Did you enjoy your visit?
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July 20th, 2014 at 4:21 pm
One of the Most memorable times of my life 🙂 I’m sure I will visit again someday and hopefully experience the beach scenes a little since I stayed in Kingston last time. Loved Kingston though
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July 22nd, 2014 at 1:52 pm
Nice! Glad that you had a great time. 🙂
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